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Why We Need an Independent United Methodist Press

This link will take you to a  well done article that summarizes the relevant details of the Bishop Bledsoe episode and also examines the exorbitant costs.

Bishop Bledsoe’s response to the costs? “It is what it is . . . Obviously that money could have been used for other things. I’m not so sure, given the realities of the situation, it could have been any different.”

My first response, “Oh yes, yes it could have.”

My second response: This article is an example of simply superb reporting by journalist Sam Hodges, who was until Thursday, May 31, 2013, the Managing Editor of The United Methodist Reporter.

A storm of forces, including in my opinion, serious short-sightedness by United Methodist Women and by large Annual Conferences who chose to go completely electronic in their communications, led to the closing of this institution. This article in the Dallas Morning News offers a good history of this important and independent voice.

Now it is gone. What’s left? Well, there are a bunch of bloggers connected with the UMC.  This site aggregates many of those blogs and sends out emails to subscribers with the latest posts.  But we, for I am one whose blog is picked up by the Methoblog, are bloggers, after all. We offer opinion pieces, random thoughts, sermon notes, theological labyrinths, and clergy rants and ramblings.

We are not reporters. We are not independent–most of us are appointed clergy, serving at the pleasure (or displeasure) of our respective Bishops. While we can be controversial and ask really important questions, our focus stays with our respective charges.

Opinions are great and can be dashed off fairly quickly while tending to our primary responsibilities–but serious reporting demands full-time attention and a means of financial support.

I do not have a solution here. I do have major concerns. As a nation, the free, independent press has been an important shaping force as we’ve sought to live through this experiment called “democracy.”

Autocratic nations routinely shut down independent voices.

I hope this does not happen to us. But it may be too late.

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Judicial Council Decisions: The Emperor Has No Clothes

The United Methodist Church cannot be re-formed. It’s over for us with our current structure.

The Judicial Council’s decision to revoke the involuntary retirement of Bishop Earl Bledsoe over issues of violation of procedural minutia found in the Book of Discipline (not over the question of his effectiveness, which was not being ruled upon) has forever made this clear. It is over.

It’s easy to get frustrated with the Judicial Council for the rulings of the last few months. Their work has thoroughly reversed decisions made by General and Jurisdictional Conferences.

However, I think that would be a mistake. They’ve done the United Methodist Church a huge favor. Because the members of the Council were faithful to the letter of the law, which is exactly what they are supposed to do, we now know for sure that this emperor has no clothes.

They have revealed an important truth and truth does very much set us free.

Many gifted, intelligent, godly people slogged through interminable meetings seeking to follow the rules and still lead us into substantive and necessary change. We easily see those as wasted hours in light of the aftermath of the Judicial Council decisions.

Again, I say, let us receive the favor here. There is simply no sense in trying to do that kind of thing anymore. It can’t work. Period.

We are going to have to engender our own revolution/reformation or die slowly of strangulation by methods that no longer support the heart of Methodism. No one in their right mind wants to die this way. But we are now at the crossroads and must choose: strangulation or revolution?

I wish we didn’t have to do this. Revolutions hurt, and leave scarred landscapes and burnt-out buildings. People die. Pain becomes our middle name. Sad tears accompany nearly every decision. Passionate arguments punctuate every discussion.

But the structure has cracked and the un-repairable foundation now sits exposed. John Wesley was an autocratic organizational genius who could do to the clergy under his command and the churches of his movement things that are now not just unworkable, but also unthinkable.

And our own efforts at tinkering with the denomination we inherited? Well, we’ve danced around it, modified it, adapted it and culturally-contexted it. Time to stop. It’s over.

What do we have left? We have the most powerful theology of grace that has ever infused the human race. We have words about God that tell us that God is ever before us, wooing the world into repentance, relationship and wholeness. We have an understanding about our redemption and forgiveness that forever sets us free. And we actually do believe that we can, in cooperation with the Spirit of God, be perfected in love.

That’s what we have.

All the rest of it, our pensions and health insurance concerns, our episcopacy and our itinerancy, our megachurches and our itsy-bitsy rural congregations, our connection, our conferences, our metrics and our vestments, are just window dressing.

We have grace.

The question we now ask: Can grace-infused theology hold us together in the revolution that is now necessary? Can we plant ourselves firmly on opposite sides of huge issues, pray, argue and fight our way through this, and see a healthy and actually united Methodist church born yet once more? Can we free ourselves from the death strangle of our current methods and still be Methodists?

If we can’t, or we won’t, then we need to die anyway. We deserve no better than to slowly lose oxygen as we wander forever lost through the dead-end maze known as the Book of Discipline. If we can and if we will, then we will unleash the Spirit of God yet once more.

It’s time.

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Time For This To End: Bishop Bledsoe’s Decision to Appeal

Will this never end?

That’s what I asked myself upon hearing the not unexpected news that Bishop Bledsoe has filed an appeal to have his involuntary retirement overturned so he may return to active episcopal leadership.  Full details of the appeal can be found here.  The document flows with legalese, of course, littered with words and phrases like “unconstitutional, unlawful, violates, lack authority, failed, Bishop Bledsoe deprived, lacks jurisdiction.”

Jesus Has Left the Building

No where in there do we have words or phrases like, “do unto others as you would have others do unto you, serving the lost, feeding the sheep, picking up the cross, blessed are you when others persecute you, if your enemy hits you turn the other cheek, forgive in the same way you wish to be forgiven, God’s will on earth as it is in heaven, become like the least of these.”

Nope. The lawyers who, by the way, expect The United Methodist Church to pay all fees and costs of this appeal, took over and Jesus has left the building.  Their job is not to do spiritual things spiritually–but to  look for the tiniest loophole, the most obscure point of order in a very disordered book, our Book of Discipline.  There will be no appeal to Holy Scripture in this fight.  Chapter and verse shall be disregarded. All references will be to paragraph this, subsection that which will of course disagree with paragraph that, subsection this.

I am reminded of the truism that the greater the relationship, the fewer the rules.  Well, we’ve got rules.  What does that say about our relationships?

The Purpose of Outside Examiners

I recently listened to a fascinating interview on Fresh Air, a radio program generally hosted by the talented Terri Gross.  She was interviewing the Roman Catholic Bishop who has been given the task of bringing into doctrinal compliance the Leadership Conference of Women Religious, a group that connects most US nuns.

The Bishop happily talked about the authoritarian, hierarchical nature of the Roman Catholic Church. He brushed away the long-time pedophile priest cover-up and took the nuns, the ones who actually do the work of the church, to task for not teaching things the Vatican wants them to teach.  Like many others, I’ve been appalled at how much those senior leaders of the RC church can get away with because no independent body ever evaluates them for, among other things, the ability to act like decent human beings.  With no outside eyes to offer correction, and with no questions permitted from those below them in the hierarchy, evil ran amok, while the finer points of the law are elevated to the state of idolatrous worship.

Our Capabilities For Doing Evil

I’m a long time lover of Russian literature. Not sure why–the stuff is often hard to read with ridiculously long philosophical asides punctuating some very good stories.  Of course, it may be said that I write the same way.  However, I like the stories and the Russian world fascinates me.

Anyway, one of my favorites is The First Circle by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn.  One of the sub-themes in this tale of talented technicians and scholars locked up together a prison camp concerns the utterly unaccountable life and world of Josef Stalin.

All of Stalin’s underlings were afraid of him, afraid of his capricious and unstable nature, and afraid of the power he held over life and  death.

No one ever spoke truth to him and lived–and generally their closest relatives also faced death, or at least exile and imprisonment.  Under Stalin’s leadership, over 20,000,000 Russians were executed.  These were peacetime deaths, ordered by this despicable man, carried out by his cowed and compromised underlings.

Easily we point the “evil” finger at him.

However, I think we need to consider that any who refuse to hear the words of others that help expose our blind spots are as capable of as much evil as was Stalin.  Any of us who will not listen to words of correction and seek transformation through repentance and redirection as necessary has crossed over to hardness of heart. We may not be as spectacular or as overt with our evil as was Stalin, but we still leave a legacy of death and destruction.

We/I/you–none of us escapes this temptation to live unquestioned and unexamined lives.

A Different Possibility

I write with concern on a personal level for Bishop Bledsoe and his wife and family.  He is a fellow clergy, they are Christian brothers and sisters, and together someday we will all kneel at the feet of Jesus. We need to be able to do so as reconciled souls.

But no matter how the Judicial Council rules, it is time for him to step aside.  He can no longer serve effectively as Bishop.

It is time for this to end.

Should the authority of the Episcopacy Committee to do what was necessary for the health of the church be clarified by the highest law body of The United Methodist Church?  Yes, it should.  It is my hope that every person in this connection who has the privilege of making clergy appointments and guiding overall direction undergoes rigorous evaluation. The Judicial Council ruling could make it more possible.

Were Bishop Bledsoe to remove his ambitions of restoration to the active episcopacy in the process of the appeal, he would have made an extraordinary step toward healing and the freedom needed to move forward. Such an act offers profound evidence of character and statesmanship.

It would also help us all learn to more willingly take rebuke and correction from each other.  As we open ourselves to one another in the Wesleyan manner, we make progress toward perfection in love, to wholeness and holiness of heart, soul, mind and action.

However, what is happening right now needs to end.  It is time.

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Further Reflections on Bishop Bledsoe and the Nature of Grace

The Nature of Grace

I’ve got the whole concept of grace heavy on my mind today.  In a world held together by a gracious God, I am more and more aware that we don’t always receive what we want and never receive what we deserve.

Others have written eloquently about this subject, particularly Dietrich Bonhoeffer:  “cheap grace is the preaching of forgiveness without requiring repentance, baptism without church discipline, Communion without confession. Cheap grace is grace without discipleship, grace without the cross, grace without Jesus Christ,”  and Philip Yancey, “God dispenses gifts, not wages. None of us gets paid according to merit, for none of us comes close to satisfying God’s requirements for a perfect life. If paid on the basis of fairness, we would all end up in hell… In the bottom line realm of ungrace, some workers deserve more than others; in the realm of grace the word ‘deserve’ does not even apply.”

Troubling Events

I will not write with such eloquence, but I do write with these things in mind: the troubling events of the last week where Bishop Bledsoe was involuntarily retired and then not given the an episcopal appointment he expected assuming an appeal of the ruling for the involuntary retirement.

According to the reports, the committee who had the responsibility of evaluating Bishop Bledsoe’s work chose to take the path they saw as most compassionate and most gracious:  encourage him to take voluntary retirement so he could go out with honor and with reputation essentially intact.  Then he could assume, without stain or question, some of the responsibilities and privileges that are awarded to retired bishops.

Bishop Bledsoe indicated that he would have rather this be fought by people filing formal charges against him and duking it out in a church court.  Those charges may now be filed, so he may have his wish.

Which Option Most Gracious?

Now, which of those choices most fully represents the kind of grace we hope to receive from God?

I will readily tell you that my sympathies are with the first options–an honorable way out, reputation intact, and damage control beginning.  But there is a major downside:  truth will not fully be told and rumors will abound.  Real healing does not take place in an atmosphere of secrets and partial truths.  And there is a bundle of healing that needs to take place here.

This is an important issue, not just for us, but for the larger world of Christianity.  I’ve written more about that here.

The second option troubles me because it means drawing sides, determining winners and losers, and the introduction of lawyers into the mix.  There is a reason why the Apostle Paul was horrified nearly 2000 years ago to learn that Christ-followers have taken their conflicts to courts.  Lawyers have important functions, but bringing out healing truth is not among them.  Rarely does graciousness invade the courtroom.

We Must Acknowledge Sin

So I go back to the nature of God and what it means that God is gracious to us.  I know that when I don’t acknowledge my own sins, I am simply unable to gain freedom from them.  I must name them in order to find forgiveness.  I must repent in order to move in a different direction.

When grace permeates that process, my confessions are done with a combination of hope and tears, but without fear of a punitive response from the hand of God.  Nonetheless, I will indeed experience human results of choosing sin over righteousness.

Why?  Because God must also hold with gracious tenderness those who have been hurt by my sin.  Sin is never an individual act. It always affects the larger community.  Even so called “victimless” sins stain the soul. A stained soul, particularly one laden with secrets that must not be disclosed for fear of repercussions, cannot freely move within any relational activity, be it family, church, friends or workplace.  There are always wider ramifications.  Always.

The Necessity of Church Discipline

Since God must hold with grace those in the larger community as well as the individual, and since all want the fullness of grace (even if not knowing those words or having a real understanding of the concept) restoration becomes a communal act.  Sometimes that restoration means that the individual, especially one who will not acknowledge wrongdoing, must be sent from the community.  This is what the Scriptures mean in the passages about church discipline.

I have heard horror stories about people being kicked out of churches for the most trivial of reasons. I have talked with numerous deeply wounded people who have experienced the worst of a rigid, judgmental, and apparently hate-filled churches.  The decision to ask someone to leave a community must be done with multiple safeguards and with careful awareness of our own need for grace.  Sometimes, however, like it or not, expulsion is the most gracious of all acts.

Let’s go to the behavior of children for an illustration.  When children are not taught how to conduct themselves in a manner in which they recognize the rights of others as well as their own, they are set up for a lifetime of rejection.  It is not gracious to let rude, insensitive bullies have their way.  It is not gracious to refrain from teaching children self-control so they have the tools to navigate schools and workplaces.  It is not gracious to reward or even ignore tantrums and selfish acts, for the child not properly corrected and taught more healthy ways to deal with human interactions will grow into an incompetent adult. Sometimes, we need to expel children for a time from the community until more adequate decisions about behavior are reached and implemented.

Simply, grace sometimes means we don’t get what we want, but means we get what we need to move to maturity, be it spiritual, social, physical or intellectual.

We Don’t Get What We Deserve

The other side of grace is that we also don’t get what we fully deserve.  Those who are willing to receive grace, and the correction, teaching, instruction and shaping that comes from grace, begin to gain eyes and develop sensitive souls that perceive the Kingdom of Heaven. They find the entrance to that holy place.

Do any of us deserve entrance?  Certainly not.  We are given an invitation–but we do need to be clothed in the proper clothes. Those clothes are given in the acts of repentance coupled with willingness to receive correction.

To go back to this situation with Bishop Bledsoe, it appears that some seek did offer correction and that he received them as those who either had different opinions or were operating out of sour grapes.  Could they have spoken more strongly?  Perhaps.  I think there is a language issue here, and I’ve written about it here.  But why would that become necessary?

At some point, the habit of not listening to correction becomes ingrained in human hearts, minds and souls. People become like hardened soils where the seeds are eaten by birds and the blessing of rain just runs off, unable to sink in.  Then the sweet invitation to confession, repentance, restoration and adjusted paths can no longer find response.

Was the Resolution Gracious?

So, has what happened been gracious to all concerned?  I am saying a qualified yes.  I suspect the original decision to encourage the Bishop to retire without the necessity of disclosing more fully the problems moved a bit close to cheap grace, although done with the best of intentions. The Bishop’s refusal to receive it this way ended up moving us closer to real grace–because some things have had to be disclosed.  The decision to remove him from episcopal leadership for the present shows a wider grace to the larger connection as well as to Bishop Bledsoe, for it would not be possible at this time for him to serve without significant shadow and for genuine trust relationships to build.

The more full manifestation of grace will appear as every participant or observer of this very tough situation seeks greater capacities for self-reflection and lovingly-given, truth-based accountability.

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Administration and Spirituality: A False Dichotomy

Spiritual Maturity and Administrative Skills

In the controversy over the decision to involuntarily retire Bishop Bledsoe, Mr. Don House, chair of the evaluation committee, said,

. . . the committee was aware of “great things” in the North Texas Conference, and praised Bishop Bledsoe as “a gifted man, a dedicated Christian man in the church.” But he said the committee acted in the interest of the denomination.

“We need excellent administrative skills, and that’s the primary motivation behind this – the health of the church,” he said. “Although Bishop Bledsoe has excellent skills in many areas, we were concerned about some of his administrative skills.”

Now, I’m reading various commentators who seem to think that being a dedicated Christian ought to be sufficient for the office of the episcopacy. They pooh-pooh the problem of questionable administrative skills, deeming them unimportant in the big picture of things.

Losing the Clergy

Read this quote by Richard Hearne, former Lay Leader of the North Texas Conference:

‘“He lost the clergy,” Mr. Hearne said, adding he felt Bishop Bledsoe could have avoided the committee’s action by acknowledging mistakes and promising to do better.”

Yes, he did lose the clergy, or at least some of them and possibly a majority of them. I don’t think it was because of any personal animosity toward him–he was warmly welcomed here and we all hoped for great things together.  So what happened?

Before I answer that, I’d like you to enter into several scenarios.

  • If you’ve ever watched a show on those who suffer from compulsive hoarding, you may have seen how chaotic are the lives of family members who have to live with the hoarder.  That person’s inability to prioritize possessions, and bring some order to just normal activities of daily living sends spouses, children, and housemates screaming to therapists for help. How would you function in such an environment?
  • Spend some time observing children at play.  Which ones are the happiest and most engaged in their play for extensive periods of time? The ones whose play area, whatever it might be (room, playpen, back yard, sand box) is cluttered with too many options, and too many toys that do not permit freedom to manipulate the toys in non-prescribed ways? Or the ones who have limited options but within those options can do pretty well what they want with the objects therein?
  • Think about your own workplace.  Where do you thrive the best?  In an atmosphere where directions and expectations are clear, where supportive leadership is given, and where you have good autonomy to reach shared goals?  Or a place where expectations are exceedingly unclear and shift constantly, where unqualified people are promoted to top positions, where you are routinely berated for poor performance but never given tools, time and training to improve your performance and where your supervisor constantly looks over your shoulders and second guesses each decision you make?

Tasks of a Good Administrator

Each of those scenarios is essentially administrative in nature.  A good and effective administrator knows how to prioritize, discards that which is unnecessary and distractive to the main goals, intentionally limits options but offers huge space for creativity within those option, has clear expectations and then makes it possible for those working under his/her supervision to reach those expectations.

How are these things not spiritual in nature?  Do they not reflect the nature of God and the way God deals with us? How can being a good and effective administrator be de-coupled from the type of mature Christian leadership needed as an effective Episcopal servant of the church?

Holiness and Dirty Diapers

When I was a young mother, up to my ears in diapers and needy babies, I realized something exceedingly important:  the act of changing a dirty diaper was equally as spiritual as time spent in intense Bible study or prayer.  That act of changing those smelly and often disgusting diapers (and these were the days when those dirty pieces of cloth then soaked in the toilet before the move to the washing machine and dryer in a never ending cycle), when done lovingly and with unending patience, is an act of service to the least of those.  It is a holy act.  It is also an act of administration.  It is an act of bringing order to chaos.

In Genesis One, when the world was void and formless, God brought order to that chaos.  Opening space for creative ministry and holy growth is essentially an administrative act.

The Problem of Clergy Morale

So to go back to Richard Hearn’s comment about losing the clergy:  It was my sense and my experience that clergy morale sank to a deep low under Bishop Bledsoe’s leadership.  Bishop Bledsoe acknowledged that fact himself in a video put out a couple of weeks before the North Texas Annual Conference.  He invited clergy to respond.  I don’t know how many did, but I heard (and I could be wrong) that it was somewhere around forty.

Now, I write a weekly newspaper column for two local newspapers.  Periodically people will write or email me in response.  I know, as do most writers, that the response of one person generally means 100 to 2000 others wanted to and just didn’t.  If as many as 40 clergy responded to the Bishop, that would effectively represent the entire ranks of clergy in the North Texas Conference.  That is a serious situation.

I was one of those who did respond.  Here the first of three questions I posed to him (all three questions can be found here):

First, how exactly are you going to define an “effective” clergy person?

This blog post more fully asks that question. Effectiveness judged by numbers is highly contextually defined, and may have much less to do with the numbers that appear on various dashboards than they do with a fortunate demographic, some deep pockets in the congregation and a compromise of the message of the gospel and of personal integrity. Those numbers may have little to do with the calling, character, or missional fruitfulness of that clergy person.

To date, I have yet to see one comprehensive statement that clarifies what an effective clergy person looks like.

Also, while I understand the Bullseye measurement system now required as part of the consultation process is supposed to emphasize narratives not numbers, the system itself appears to give numbers only the large visual prominence highlighted by colors on quick glance.  Those initial impressions are rarely easily erased by reading smaller type-face explanations.

One more factor here:  I have heard several times that you and members of the Cabinet consider one third of the clergy in the North Texas Conference as “ineffective.”  Have you let that third know of that such designation is attached to their name and record?  How about the clergy deemed “effective?”  Do they know?

To use a business analogy:  if ⅓ of a given workforce is not doing their job, and if that significant portion of the workforce is never informed of the problem nor given opportunity to see and address the evaluations, how will there be improvement? And if the other ⅔ are working up to expectation, but are also never informed of such fact, but only told that (undefined) incompetence or ineffectiveness is a huge problem, then fear and anxiety will rule. Rarely do such emotions produce more self-motivated and willing work environments.

All clergy in this conference need to know how they have been classified (effective or ineffective; fruitful or unfruitful, or the latest terminology) and the reasons for that decision.

Bishop Bledsoe and I did have a thirty-minute phone conversation concerning my questions. I did not hear from him an answer to any of them.

A Grace Issue

The Rev. Zan Holmes, who accompanied Bishop Bledsoe as clergy advocate (and it needs to be noted here that reports indicate the clergy in this conference who were called before the infamous “Triads” were denied the privilege of having a clergy advocate with them), stated,

“I’m very disappointed that the committee decided to retire this bishop at this time, in spite of the fact that he really worked hard to be a change agent in the North Texas Conference, for the good of the church,”

He added that he would go along with Bishop Bledsoe’s assessment that race wasn’t an issue in the committee’s decision.

“But I call it a grace issue,” he said. “And one of the questions I raised is where is the grace in this process where we minister to one another and affirm one another and help one another grow.”

Yes, I agree: this is a grace issue.  And it involves much more that Bishop Bledsoe’s job and position.  It involves speaking our own difficult truths, seeking to help one another move to perfection in love, moving to deep repentance when sin is exposed, and offering the fullness of forgiveness to one another.

Grace does not, however, mean keeping people in positions for which they have either inadequate gifts or a disinclination to exercise those gifts when necessary.  We separate our spirituality from our administrative gifts at our peril and at the peril of those whom we are called to lead.

I do believe that there that a holy chaos overtakes us as we move closer to the fullness of the Presence of God and discover that our sense of order may not match God’s sense of order.  However, there is also an unholy chaos that is deeply dispiriting and keeps us from our mission.  That unholy chaos must be addressed–on every level.

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The Impossibility of Proving a Negative; Why Metrics Don’t Work As Evaluative Tools

The Taunt

“Scaredy cat, scaredy cat!”

“Am not!”

“Prove it!”

The classic playground exchange: one child makes a pejorative accusation of another, the second denies the charge, and the first one says, “Prove what I just said isn’t true.”

And child number two is now put in the impossible situation.  For there is no way to prove to the first child’s satisfaction that he or she is indeed not a “scaredy cat.”

Let’s try another example, and I write this knowing the illustration can be called “sexist.” However, since I’m a woman, and it reflects poorly on womankind, I’ll take the risk:.

Many wives have said to their husbands (to their husband’s despair), “You don’t love me!”

What they are really saying, of course, is that “You are not doing what I want you to do so I feel good about myself so therefore you must not love me.”  By the way, this is why many people don’t think God loves them either–God just doesn’t always dance well to our imperative tunes.

Anyway, when the husband responds, “Of course I love you,” he plays the same losing game as the schoolyard children above.  As long as his wife is convinced that he doesn’t love her, there is no way he can prove otherwise.  He can’t prove the negative.

The Accusations of Racism

Right now, there are charges of racism being floated against members of the North Texas Conference and the South Central Jurisdiction Episcopacy Committee that evaluated Bishop Bledsoe’s leadership and effectiveness.  With those charges now coming from several places, the chances of a reconciling and healthy resolution to this situation grow increasingly unlikely.

Why?  Because we can’t prove a negative.

What would the North Texas Conference have to do to prove this negative?  This question needs to be asked.  What would it take to prove decisively to those who have floated such accusations that they are untrue?  Those who have made such charges need to answer the question: What would bring them satisfaction?

The Problem with Numbers

This situation has made glaringly clear the problem with making numbers (“metrics” is the more sophisticated term) as the basis for determining effectiveness.  A tiny gain in the number of people attending worship and 16 church plants has been given as proof that Bishop Bledsoe is effective in leadership.

Yes, those 16 church plants have helped very much bring an increase in worship numbers.  But here’s the problem:  most of the church plants started, or were at least in the planning stages, long before Bishop Bledsoe took office.  I know–my church is considered one of them–not as a brand new plant, but as a relocation and restart.

I started working on this in 2007–but I also can’t take credit because I was building on the good work of the people of this church and of my clergy predecessors, who began to dream about this in the early 1990’s.  It’s all part of a long term system, and I am just a part of that system, not the sole driving force.

Bishop Bledsoe began his term as Bishop on September 1, 2008.  Most if not all of those church plants that are showing good numbers have been doing ground floor work for far longer that Bishop Bledsoe’s years in leadership in the North Texas Conference.

All of us in leadership roles need to recognize that we are standing on the shoulders of those who came before us.  Our results are highly dependent on systems and plans in place years before. Numbers reflect an extremely small part of leadership effectiveness, particularly when being evaluated over a short term time period–and four years is a very short time frame for a complex organization saddled with ponderous change challenges.

“Isms” Must Stop

I personally ache with compassion for Bishop Bledsoe as a fellow human being.  He’s in a very, very tough spot right now, with minefields all around him. It will take enormous wisdom and grace to work through this. But it can be done, and can be done redemptively, even if painfully.

I also say that all “isms” are contrary to the Gospel of grace and reconciliation offered to us by the life, death and resurrection of Jesus, the one who ate with sinners, touched the unclean, and offered the first news of his glory of his resurrection to the least believable of witnesses–a group of uneducated women.

No “isms” have a place in kingdom of heaven living.  Nonetheless, issues of call, character and competence do have a place.  We must not move someone from a leadership position on the basis of an “ism” but we can and should move someone on other grounds with sufficient reasons.  If a person, by reason of any “ism,” is no longer subject to evaluation of call, character and competence, then what we have is a whole new and disturbing paradigm of unaccountable leadership, itself based on an “ism.”

Monday Morning Quarterbacks

I recently noticed in an online conversation where some people with no first hand knowledge of this situation, little second-hand knowledge, and only a surface look at the headlines have decided that there is “something rotten in Texas.”

They display Monday morning quarterbacking at its best.  The observer at the game, never having considered what it is like to face a line of well-trained giants who are out to slam him to the ground, who has to get an awkward ball to an invisible receiver who is also surrounded by highly motivated giants prepared to outmaneuver him by any means necessary, readily berates the quarterback for having missed a perfect opportunity to score.  Amazing.

We do this all the time in the church and pretty well every other place.  We set up committees or task forces to take care of necessary work or shoulder an important responsibility, elect or nominate competent people to serve on them, wait for the results of their work, and then call them a bunch of idiots who ignored the facts so very obvious to those who sat on the sidelines.

I remember one time watching a car chase that took place over several hours on Dallas freeways, with multiple law enforcement officers giving chase, trying to pull the driver over without harming other drivers on the road.  I watched it via helicopter cameras, and could indeed see some things the pursuing officers could not see.  Later, I happened to turn on a talk-radio program where I heard callers expound on the incompetence of the police. Each caller was insistent that he/she would have pulled over the miscreant so much better, so much quicker, and so much easier.  Right.

All of us do this, and I’m included in that “all of us.”  I/we are so quick to criticize and assume we could do better than those actually in the battle, on the field, driving the pursuit car, or charged with evaluating the performance.

It doesn’t help when we start lashing out with highly emotionally laden words and accusations that are impossible to prove untrue. Remember, you can’t prove a negative.

Perhaps we’d all be better off to remove phrases like this from our verbal repertoires:

  • “You don’t love me.”
  • “You are a racist.”
  • “You are an ignorant redneck.”
  • “You are untrustworthy.”
  • “You are a bad person.”
  • “You are a coward.”
  • “You are stupid.”
  • “You are a heretic.”

Now, every day, we probably do face unloving, prejudiced, ignorant, deceitful, evil, cowardly, stupid, heretical people.  But I doubt that a single one of them (or us) is going to hear a statement like one of those above and say in return, “Oh my gosh–you are right!  I should have seen this all along!”

We offer light by being light, not by being agents of darkness ourselves.  Yes, racism and all other “isms” must be addressed.  But they must be addressed in kingdom of heaven fashion.  Remember these words:

You’re familiar with the command to the ancients, ‘Do not murder.’ I’m telling you that anyone who is so much as angry with a brother or sister is guilty of murder. Carelessly call a brother ‘idiot!’ and you just might find yourself hauled into court. Thoughtlessly yell ‘stupid!’ at a sister and you are on the brink of hellfire. The simple moral fact is that words kill. This is how I want you to conduct yourself in these matters. If you enter your place of worship and, about to make an offering, you suddenly remember a grudge a friend has against you, abandon your offering, leave immediately, go to this friend and make things right. Then and only then, come back and work things out with God.  (Matthew 5:21-24, The Message Translation)

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Why It Matters: The Episcopal Situation in the North Texas Conference

Jeffrey Weiss, a reporter with the Dallas Morning News, has asked these questions concerning the episcopal situation facing the North Texas Conference:  “Why does this matter? And to who? Clearly, it’s a big deal to North Texas Methodist clergy. But who else should be paying attention? And why?”

Here is my response:

Does this Episcopal situation matter to anyone besides the United Methodist clergy?

Three Levels

On one level, and speaking on a short term time frame, no, not really. We clergy and the members of the churches we serve are the only ones who experience anything directly. Even then, it will mostly just be clergy. And among the clergy, only a few will see much immediate fallout. Most everyone else will go on doing what we’ve always been doing, and trying to ignore what may be a fatal blow to our connection as the slow internal hemorrhage of pain, mistrust and discouragement takes its toll.

One a second level, and on a longer-term time frame, it matters because while we United Methodists may not be huge in number, we do have a large impact in the quiet and generally unnoticed work of patching broken lives back together again. Because of our strong social conscience, Methodists from the beginning of this movement in 17th England have been on the forefront of living out our faith by feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, visiting the prisoners, caring for the outcasts, rescuing the children, and bringing health to the ill, both of body and mind.  This hidden work is part of the glue that holds both the Metroplex and the larger civilized world together and offers the sweet aroma of goodness and grace to a world sorely lacking in both.

Religious people, particularly Christians, are often mocked in the press because of our proclivity for silly arguments over the minutest details of doctrine, stupid social positions, disgustingly hateful pronouncements about racial, gender and sexual issues, and moral scandals among clergy. Those things make good reads and are used as fodder to say, “See, they really are a bunch of hypocrites.”  What rarely sees wide publicity is the immensely transformational nature of much of our quiet work. Let the United Methodist church come apart by this apparently unimportant disagreement, and the power and goodness that comes from that quiet work may easily dissipate. We will all feel the loss of these sweet services of grace, even those with no direct involvement with United Methodists, but most won’t know the root cause of the loss.

One a third, and most important level, what we as small group of clergy and churches are experiencing is the universal human story. This is the story of trust, betrayal, its aftermath and the long and complicated path to forgiveness and finding trust again.  And this is why the story needs to be told.

The Covenant Connection

United Methodist clergy, all of whom in some way or another have devoted our lives to living out the call to serve God and the community, are held together by a covenant.  A covenant is much more than a contract.  It is, like the marriage covenant, a binding of souls together for better or for worse.

I often tell the members of my congregation that the people who are most likely to hurt them painfully are the ones to whom they have made themselves most vulnerable, most “woundable” so to speak.  Who are they? Spouses, parents, children, extended family, long-time friends, confidants, employers.

They are the ones with whom we explore the basic question that haunts everyone:  can we both be fully known AND fully loved?

They are the one who can and do find our most tender places and dig the knives of betrayal in deep.

They are the ones we consistently have to learn to forgive and to re-engage in covenant life.

United Methodist Clergy have that kind of covenant with our Bishop. It is the Bishop who decides which clergy person will serve where and for how long. We have all taken a vow of itinerancy–this is part of our heritage from John Wesley, the founder of the Methodist movement.  We will go where we are told, and do so trusting that our Bishop makes those decisions with wisdom, grace, genuine love for us as brother and sister clergy people, and with adequate knowledge of both congregation and clergy in order to put the right person in the right place.

Some clergy move frequently. Some stay in one place for 20, 30 even 40 years. But all technically are subject to the decisions of the Bishop about placement. Any one at any time may receive a call and hear, “The Bishop has appointed you to . . . ”  Our entire lives, the lives of our spouses and children, and the lives of our congregations can be radically turned upside down.

It takes a lot of trust to live and work in a situation like this.

Broken Trust

The trust that held that fragile covenant (and all covenants made by humans are fragile by nature) has been broken. On all sides of this situation, there are people who feel utterly betrayed, stabbed in the back, and sucker-punched. The breath has gone out of us–but as it comes back in, anger tends to accompany it.

Anger in and of itself is not necessarily bad. It can energize us to fight with passion the most evil of oppressions. Or it can turn into an evil oppressor itself.

Again, this is the human experience. What we live through on the micro level of Bishop/Clergy/Laity of the North Texas Conference of The United Methodist Church is also lived through on the macro level of all human experience.  What we bring to its resolution is a faith centered on Jesus who says, at the moment of total betrayal, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.”

The Universal Questions

We are, I suspect, going to be asking the same questions that every other single person who has been betrayed asks. Those questions are:

  • “What does forgiveness look like?”
  • “Does the work of forgiveness mean that I must stay in intimate relationship with the those who appear to have betrayed me?”
  • “How can I learn to trust again?”

We’re going to have to ask those questions on a deeply personal level and on a larger, connectional level.  As we ask them, we will decide once more if the Gospel is true.

If we cannot get through this without destroying one another, then the larger world is right to ridicule us a deceived people who have bought into a lie.

If it is true that God’s love for us is so powerful that God will go to all lengths to bring us back into reconciled intimacy with God, then it is time to live it out.

We must discern what is expected of us and of God in that journey toward healing, forgiveness, regained trust and reconciliation.

My Own Story

I speak very personally here for a moment. A number of years ago, I chose to end my first marriage.  My husband at that time was/is not a bad or evil person.  I was/am not a bad or evil person.  But the relationship itself had become a place of death–I could not stay alive as an individual and stay in the marriage.  After several years of serious contemplation of and hope for my own death, I chose life and also chose to offer forgiveness but without the kind of reconciliation that would continue to leave me vulnerable to the damaging dynamic of the relationship.

Was it an ideal solution? Hardly. The repercussions will go on for generations and it took me years to come to deep peace with it and to hope and pray nothing but goodness for the man who is the father to my children.  But even with those hopes and prayers, I would not be married to him again.

The choice to trust again after such an experience was complicated and fraught with fear for me.  But I knew that by living in suspicion of others, I would deny myself the joy of intimacy forever.

A little while ago, I went to take a walk. As I am writing this, I am staying alone at my oldest son’s house, in a suburb south of London, England. Near his house are several heavily forested areas with multiple walking and bridle paths. There is no map of the paths, and I often wonder if I might get lost in my perambulations.

As I went to take this walk, I walked alone in a part of the forest I had not explored before. The skies were darkening with oncoming rain. Although prepared for the rain, I wondered, “Can I trust that everyone I might encounter on these lonely and gloomy paths will be adequately civilized so I may get home safely?”

I became suddenly aware that no one knew where I was or would even know that I had not returned safely for at least 24 hours when I was scheduled to pick up the grandchildren from school.

With each turning of the path, I had a choice: stick with the route I knew, have a decent walk, get home and lock the door against other possibilities, OR, try a different route, risk getting lost and possibly hurt, and see what I can discover about myself and God.

Several times, I chose the unknown route, knowing that if I faced my demons and looked them straight in the eye, I had a chance of loving them into submission. But if I let them win, they are my masters. Demons make poor masters but great jailers.

Facing Our Demons

That’s why this this episcopal mess is important to many more than just a small group of beleaguered, tired and often discouraged clergy people. What we do in response will, in its own way, change the world. We’ll either face our demons and love them into transformation or we will let them win and shut ourselves away. There is no such thing as a neutral act, and no such thing as an act that does not affect in some way everything it touches.  And we United Methodists touch a massive number of things in this area, in the US, and in the world.

We will either learn to trust again and become more able to speak our truth in love, or we’ll stuff our truths away and build the fortifications around our souls so we won’t be hurt again–and we will lose our hope of redemption.

There is nothing easy about what is before us. That, also, is the universal human condition. Certainly, some life choices glow clearly, with the righteous and holy path fully illuminated. Most do not–most choices flicker with multiple shades of grey dancing in the shadows of our minds and hearts. We wander now into those shadowy and gloomy gray areas littered with hidden and yet to be explored paths. It will take much wisdom, humility, prayer, courage and forgiveness to find our way out. Again, this is the universal human experience.

That’s why this is important.  The painful, slow process of resolution will not gain national press. But it will have a long term effect on our faith and society, and we are foolish to believe otherwise.

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The Language of Power and Pentecost: Bishops, Clergy and Gardens

Note:  this is part of a larger body of writing I am currently working on with the theme of “The Sustainable Church” which is an extended metaphor of church as garden.  I believe what I am learning has important applicability to the current situation in the North Texas Conference of The United Methodist Church.

How do plants communicate with the gardener that something has gone wrong?  What means do they use to let the one with authority over them, i.e., the gardener, gain awareness of their health, their diseases, their thirsts and their floods?

This question strikes me as I ponder the situation with the Bishop and the Conference in North Texas.

The Bishop insists that no one ever told him that he was not effective in leadership until the Jurisdictional Delegation let him know that he would not be asked back as Bishop in the NTAC and that no other conference would have him serve as their Bishop.

There are strong parallels to explosions in local churches. Most pastors know that when people are unhappy with them, rarely will the discontent ones come straight to them to discuss their complaints. Instead, they speak of their unhappiness to others of like minds. Sometime they are so contagious with their spiritual illness that much of the church catches the infection. Suddenly, the pastor is pushed out and says, “Why didn’t someone tell me?”

Why did we not hear? I think the majority of those in the church do not speak the language of the pastor nor know how to communicate their discontent in a way that it will be lovingly heard and acknowledged.  I also think the majority of the clergy do not speak the language of the Bishop nor expect that they will be lovingly heard or acknowledged.

As godly leaders, we must learn the language of those we lead, rather than asking them to learn ours.

Think about it this way: how can plants indicate that there is a problem?  They can’t go straight to the gardener and say, “Hey, I’m suffering here” because they do not speak the language of the gardener. The effective gardener must instead learn the language of the plants.

Gardeners have great power over their gardens.  They pick what will be planted and what won’t.  They periodically plow or turn over the beds, causing giant disruption to every living creature within. They decide where the paths will be set out and which plants will get extra attention and which ones will be generally ignored.  They discern what is weed, and therefore not fruitful, and what is plant, and therefore expected to be fruitful.

Effective gardeners know when the plants are thirsty or have roots that are destructively wet. They see early signs of insect problems, note when some plants are going to seed too soon and thereby stop production of the needed fruit, and are aware when the normal processes of pollination are not working. For example, reduced honeybee populations have giant ramifications for gardens, and so systemic issues behind the problems must be addressed and leveraged.  Effective gardeners recognize quickly when a mistake has been made  with an experimental item, such as planting in the wrong season or in a weather zone where the plant can’t thrive, and rectify it quickly so space for more fruitful plants is not wasted.

But, remember, the plants can’t talk!  Gardeners learn the language of their plants by spending much time in their gardens, inspecting, watching, observing, gaining awareness of even slight changes that might cause huge problems later.

This cannot be done quickly! Those slight changes can be noticed only by those who have carefully developed deep and essentially unconscious knowledge of the plants and who understand that even a minor variation in temperature or soil make-up may mean the difference between abundant harvests and empty bushel baskets at the end of the season. Good gardeners have such keen eyes and strong sensitivity that they can pluck the almost invisible tomato hornworm off a plant the moment it shows up, because if they don’t, the leaves will be stripped in 24 hours.

As do gardeners, Bishops have great power, and they speak and live the language of power.  They display it by dress, by special seats and by unique insignia at General Conference, Annual Conferences and other events. They live power by hand-picking those who will work closest with them and to whom they are most likely to listen.  They speak it by acknowledging that the privilege of appointment making is ultimately in their hands.  Bishops can and do disrupt the lives of the clergy and the congregations in their domain.  They can and do make giant changes that leave everyone unsettled.

Both gardeners and Bishops need that power to work with effectiveness. The problem comes with communicating through the position of power.

It it up to those who have the power to learn the language of those who don’t.

And that is contrary to almost all human nature–and why the nature of the church must be so radically different.

Language is power.  Because of world domination and power first of Great Britain and then economic and technological leadership of the United States, English has become the lingua franca of the world.  For example, English is required of all pilots who fly international flights, because English is the language used by air traffic controllers to direct pilots in their routes, their landings and take-offs, their taxiways to gates and their delays as necessary.  Learn English or lose the job, no matter how skilled otherwise.

In addition, at least in the US, the lower on the economic scale, the higher the likelihood that people will become bi-lingual.  Speaking the language of those in power is necessary for survival.

The experience of women who first entered male dominated fields also illustrates this point.  Many of these women, more used to the language of nurture and cooperation, had to learn the language of power, domination and competition in order to earn and keep their places.  They were the one who had to become bi-lingual, not the ones who already had the power. Those with the power stayed monolingual.  Linguist and scholar Deborah Tannen, http://www9.georgetown.edu/faculty/tannend/,  has done some powerful work here that has opened many eyes to that situation.

But the point of the Incarnation itself is that God will indeed stoop to speak our language, and will come as we are in all our frailty in order to open the doors to the Kingdom of Heaven.  The church MUST be different from the world, or we no longer live out that Incarnational truth.  The first have to become last.

This is shown powerfully on the day of Pentecost. The first, i.e., those privileged ones who had known Jesus intimately, became the ones who spoke the languages of others so everyone might hear.  They did not insist that those sojourners and pilgrims to Jerusalem, desperate for the water of grace, first learn the language in which it was being lived out.  Those first and intimate followers of Jesus spoke in languages different from their own.  They had to, for otherwise, the Word could not bear fruit.

That’s what effective gardeners do:  they learn to speak the language of the plants, for otherwise, the plants will not bear fruit.

And that, in my opinion, is the locus of the controversy now taking place in the North Texas Conference of the UMC.  Again, Bishop Bledsoe indicates that no one has spoken to him of their problem with his leadership.  I think they spoke, but it was in a language he does not know, and has not chosen to learn.  He, as do almost all people in power, expected his clergy serving under him to learn and speak his language. Essentially, he expected his garden to come to him rather than going to the garden and learning it intimately.

He has not walked his garden, or given himself time to carefully observe small and often unobtrusive signs of unhealth or disease. He has not noticed that many clergy are wilting under unrelenting pressure to prove themselves effective or fruitful with no good definition as to what that means other than coming up with numbers that look good.  His fields have not been tended well, and have become parched, sterile and dry, but he, as gardener, makes little discernible move to help them regenerate by times of fallowness and huge applications of life-giving compost.

I do not think this neglect comes because he doesn’t care.  I do think he does not take time to know or care for his own garden because of the nature of the Episcopal responsibilities and the nature of our structure.

He does send out his undergardeners, but they themselves, burdened by unending reports, meetings and paperwork, rarely walk the gardens either, except for the annual Charge Conferences, which probably function more like Potemkin villages than realistic assessments of the situation at hand.  The gardens are wilting, and the main response from on high: either figure out your own problems and bear fruit or get ready for the consequences.

It won’t work in the long run.  Not for gardens and not for churches.

Let us not forget that clergy do the same thing in our own parishes.  We expect people who are wilting and ailing spiritually and finding themselves unable to thrive under our pastoral leadership to speak our language and tell us so.  But they can’t, and we find ourselves shocked to discover that the virus that infected one plant, one plant could have been brought back to life by good attention, suddenly took over much of the church, which now needs expensive  and often fruitless life-support treatment just to survive.

I’ve done it myself, way too many times. I am busy with my reports and my plans and my messages and administrative details and Conference business and trying to make sure my numbers get bigger each year, because that is the only language I can use that the District Superintendents (the undergardener) and Bishop will understand. That is my official language; no one else in the local church can speak it fluently.

The language of those in my care is one of pain and brokenness and occasional desperation. Theirs is of family problems and intractable illnesses and economic pressures and teen pregnancies and destructive addictions. They need tending and watering and good care so they can bend and not break in the midst of the storms and rise the next day to greet the sunshine with ripening fruit of righteousness.

When I don’t take the time to wander quietly and unhurriedly through their lives, when I expect people to come to me with the problems they are having with me rather than noticing the wilt myself, then I get slammed, sucker-punched, and emotionally devastated when someone says, “I’ll never return to that church as long as she is pastor.”  This, I believe, is what happened to our Bishop.

I am the one at fault where my church is concerned.  I must take responsibility for my own actions and neglect. I have not loved them enough to learn their languages fluently and to observe adequately their need for support and nurture. I have too often refused the message of Pentecost for the least of these under my care.  I expected my plants to start speaking the Queen’s English, when the only language they know is to wilt and die and spread their infection to neighboring plants.

Why did the General Conference vote against a set-aside Bishop, which would have been a very good thing?  Because they heard the language of power, not servanthood. Why did they vote so overwhelmingly to eliminate guaranteed appointment of clergy without even being willing to bring this to the floor?  Because they heard the language of privilege, rather than the language of humble prophets.  Why did they vote against urgently needed and important restructuring plans?  Because they heard insider language, and they were outsiders and tired of having their own tongues denigrated or ignored.

Why has Bishop Bledsoe been deemed ineffective?  Could it be because he is surrounded, with a few exceptions, by those who speak language of power and privilege and who are happy to give orders, but who will not lay down their lives to serve?  Could it be that he has insisted that his gardens be the bearers of Pentecost miracles rather than bringing Pentecost to the gardens?

In my opinion, he shot himself in the foot when he first came on as Bishop and promoted an expensive cruise to the Holy Land as a way to get to know him better–this is clear language of power and privilege. I believe alienated many–it certainly did me.  Were and are his intentions dishonorable?  I personally don’t think so.  But the best and most honorable of intentions must be communicated through the mystery of Pentecost, rather than the cement of power.

Is this story redeemable? Of course it is. All stories are redeemable.  That’s the gospel. That’s what we stand for.

Can mutual trust and accountability rise from the ashes of this fire?  Yes, indeed!

Can our gardens again become heavy with fruit and feed the world with the life-giving grace of God?  Of this, I am sure.

I also know the work that goes into transforming toxic and barren soil–and that it never happens quickly.  If we look for the quick fix here, if we sweep this under the rug, if we do not all carefully examine our own souls in this process, then we will ensure barrenness and death.

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Fight Like the Devil and The North Texas Annual Conference at a Distance

I had been formally excused from attendance at the North Texas Annual Conference this year because of my sabbatical leave, but decided to watch as much of it as I could by livestream and to keep up otherwise by twitter and blog posts.

Powerful reports filtered in of great worship, strong youth leadership, renewed energy, hope, connection and collegiality.  The Nehemiah team did a great job presenting options for new delivery models as they held to the essential mission of the Annual Conference.  Church plants are adding many new people to worship and the reports about Owen Ross and the Christ Foundry brought tears of joy to my eyes. The Connections Band brings both great music and hope of life to thousands. Larry George’s strong call to no longer normalize poverty had the twitter feed active and clearly touched by that.

Because of the time difference (I am six hours ahead), I was not able to see the ordination service, but again, the comments suggested an electrifying and powerful evening.  I read the sermon and appreciated it, although I have one concern.  There is a vital point I think Rev. Baughman missed and I also think, at the end, the Bishop missed.  In Acts 2, after Peter’s speech that convicted so many of their need to turn to God, he says to them, “Repent and be baptized.’

Baughman said, “Peter’s prescription is water.”  No, Peter’s prescription is repentance.  The water to end the drought is the result of repentance.

Repentance, metanoia, is the deep and profound turning from darkness to light, and a turning that always, always, always, leads to huge humility. When we turn from darkness to the light, all of our sin is exposed.  Hubris no longer has a place, for we suddenly see ourselves as God sees us, fully in need of the covering of grace. Our proper response: fall on our knees before God with these words, “Have mercy upon me, a sinner.”

That is what didn’t happen, but could have.

I decided to sacrifice sleep on June 5 and go ahead and stay up for the reading of the appointments and the final comments by the Bishop.  I heard him preach a powerful sermon from Mark 5 about the demon-possessed man set free by Jesus and then told to do this:  ”Go home to your own people. Tell them your story – what the Master did, how he had mercy on you.”

I thought, “What a great segue into his good-bye to this Conference as Bishop–he too, will be going home to tell his story.  He will have been set free and will set us free to go forward as a Conference.”

How wrong I was.

Instead, I learned with dismay that the man who is the spiritual leader of 160,000 United Methodists in North Texas intends to fight like the devil to keep his position.

How does the devil fight?  With craftiness, by inserting doubt about the goodness of God, by inviting others to embellish the truth in order to justify themselves, and by encouraging the compromise of long term holiness and  joy for short term gain and profit.

What did our Bishop do?  First, his put his sweet wife and her grief fully on display–leaving her unattended to weep openly in full view of the camera.  So like the first man–let the woman take the hit.  The Bishop used a short term gain in numbers, taking credit for the hard work of others and plans that had been in operation long before his tenure began, to compromise the hope of long-term holiness.  On the basis of those short term numbers, he declared himself “effective.”

Then he played the race card, and brought unbelievable harm onto our Conference.  That is fighting like the devil, indeed. Do all possible to divide people on a deep level and keep them far from the hope of grace-filled reconciliation with God and with each other.  Sadly, the story of Genesis 3 was powerfully re-enacted on June 5 at the Plano Centre.

I understand that the Bishop was hurt by the poor evaluation of his tenure as Bishop.  But to turn and then intentionally hurt the Annual Conference in this way brings into question his leadership capabilities.  I believe the holy response to being hurt should have been something like, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

It appears that he has chosen hubris over humility.  That is indeed fighting like the devil–who, as Milton suggested in Paradise Lost, lives from this principle: “Better to reign in Hell than to serve in Heaven”

It is time to repent–all of us.  That is what opens the door for the Holy Spirit to enter.

Note: I have written further reflections on the situation here.  Also, the comment immediately below by Rev. Nancy DeStefano offers important insight and needs to be read.

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